My beliefs continue to shift as I learn new things. I find it helpful to sit with incoming information to see what is similar to and different from what I already believe. Most of it is a matter of terminology—a different way of saying something I already know. I try to look for similarities when something new comes across my awareness. If there is some new nugget of truth that resonates with my spirit, I will add it to my repertoire. I still enjoy certain Bible verses because the way the Holy Spirit has shown me to apply it works or brings comfort or supports my trust in God/Goddess.
As many of you know, I went back to church in the latter part of 2020. I felt there was something that needed to be resolved within my past experience with organized religion. But, I had cleared so much already. Maybe I was going simply to be a blessing or to make new friends. Whatever the higher purpose, I just knew I had to go so I did.
For ten weeks I felt like I had several aspects playing out roles in my body–I was remembering myself as a religious fanatic and a wounded child and at the same ministering to myself and the congregation as an empowered spiritual “warrior”.
When I snapped out of that former timeline and felt like myself again, I wondered what in the world was I doing in church. The timeline collapsed suddenly while I was listening to the preacher speak about how the age of the Apostles had passed–that people were not doing the miraculous things that the disciples of Jesus did. Hmmm…. My life as a celestial shaman is proof that the preacher was misinformed. Just because he was not witnessing or performing what my friend Becca and I call the “Jesus gifts” does not mean they aren’t happening. In fact, Becca had instantly healed a woman who was on her death bed in a foreign country just the week before.
I not only felt like a stranger in the energy field at church that day, I knew I had to get out of there–fast! Right before the communion elements were about to be passed that Sunday morning, I picked up my purse and coat and practically ran out the back door. Whatever mission I was on had been accomplished. I have not been back nor do I feel compelled to.
This was one of the strangest missions I have ever been sent on. I know I did some portal/timeline work while there. I did some self-healing and perhaps I added some benefit to the lives of those I had met there. I could not continue attending because I felt I was being drawn down energetically and was starting to doubt all the personal growth I had accomplished over the past 20 years. To stay would have impaired the trust I have in what God is doing through me, and many other celestial shamans, starseeds, and lightworkers.
Everyone has their own methods and opinions—mine are no better than or less correct than anyone else’s. In all circumstances, find what works for you. It is fine for others to have an experience different from yours. Allow your beliefs and practices to change as you learn, grow, and evolve.
Sometimes we need to let go of something we held onto before we can gain better understanding and more forward.