Many people I speak with these days tell me they do not want to be on the planet. With all the chaos going on right now, I understand why they might not want to be here. This is an indication of a conscious death wish. But, many people have an unconscious death wish they are not aware of.
Rebirthers, such as Leonard Orr and Sondra Ray, refer to a subconscious death wish that every human has. It is part of the collective human psyche. We notice this polarity when we wish to live fully. Both are valid self-expressions to be embraced, not judged.
Do You have an Unconscious Death Wish?
The death wish includes beliefs such as these:
- I love God and want to be with Him. I need to die to be with God
- It is too hard here, and I want to go “home”
- There is value in suffering; all humans suffer
It is important to know that you did not do anything “wrong” by having a death urge. Becoming aware of it is a positive step of growth in your self-realization. The key is to simply accept that there was, up until this particular moment of choice, a part of you wishing to die. Affirm, accept, and love that part of yourself. Then, choose to live fully.
A soul makes commitments to other people, organizations, institutions, and philosophies and then goes about the rest of its Earth life trying to keep them. When a walk-in takes the body, all the commitments, vows, and promises made by the walk-out soul are still operating underneath the surface. It reminds me of the time I saw my twelve-year-old grandson give his toddler-age brother a video remote control that was not connected to the system. The younger one thought he was playing and controlling the action. If you have ever tried playing a game on Xbox, PlayStation, Wii, or some other system while there’s a toddler begging to play too, you can appreciate this analogy.
Without clearing the commitments of the natal soul, the walk-in soul lives in “demo” mode. He thinks he is controlling the action he sees on the screen of his life, but he is actually going through the motions without realizing that another program is running the show. The walk-in may rebel against these programs that stem from the natal soul’s family, co-workers, bosses, spouses, children, pets, and friends. This “information” may register as an illness or discomfort in the physical body.
The ego mind always wants to know why. The answer is often multifaceted, even multidimensional and is outside the comprehension and knowledge of the linear, ego mind. You may or may not know consciously what is holding you back. However, it can be very helpful to discover and expose these “bad messages” in order to speak the command to be released from a commitment your soul did not make. Maxine Taylor’s book, Move into the Magic, offers excellent resources for doing just that. Maxine is an ordained trans-denominational minister, a Reconnective Healing Practitioner, and a Matrix Energetics healer. (See http://www.maxinetaylor.com.)
When a subconscious “death wish” continues after the walk-out soul has left the body, it can cause the walk-in’s mission to get stuck or even be aborted if the life of the body ends because the core issue was not dealt with. That is why it is so important for walk-ins to have support to keep the body safe during the adjustment phase. If you need assistance in dealing with the adjustment phase, a light language session with Yvonne Perry could help.
Thankfully, not all walk-outs create drama when they are ready to leave. If a soul has learned what it needed to learn and accomplished its purpose, it can choose to “pass the baton” to an incoming soul without impairing the body through an unconscious death urge.